9.20.2009

Orbitz0003

It's nice to see someone follow me, even tho I don't know who you are.
I read what you wrote, doesn't mean that I value what you have to say but it is definitely very interesting to see it from an outsiders pov. And I must stress "outsider".
You say it's amazing to see so many of my friends not push me or advise me into your defintion of good. Do u even know me personally? Have u met me before? Have we hung out before? Because if you knew me you would know that I don't have many friends. I know a lot of people but I only have very few friends aside from my husband and sister.
As I continued to read I knew you didn't know me personally when you called my husband an idiot, anyone who knows my husband knows that he loves me very much and that he wouldn't contribute to my "downfall" or help me "destroy my health n value". I wonder what downfall you speak of. What kind of a failure do you take me for?
You say this wasn't about judging me or it not being about god but you made it pretty clear that you are judging me and that all this was about god.
I find it disrespectful for you to talk about my son and I. You have no clue what my life is like, you might read what I post on Twitter but you don't know my sons life, you don't know what happens in these walls, so for you to take up so much time to write what you wrote based on what you've read about me is amazing to me. It's amazing to me that you really think you are not judging me. My son is loved by both me and my husband, and there is no one in this world that will love him more. My son has it better bc I AM HIS MOTHER!!! You get that thru your head!
It's clear you live a different lifestyle than mine, and have different beliefs than I do and that's absolutely fine. I don't live my life for others to approve or disapprove. I live my life the way I want to! You can live yours the way you want to. But I would never have the nerve to bash somebody elses life the way you just did.
I could careless what unique is to YOU! Noone asked for your opinion.
You really think that I'm empty inside or confused and that that is the reason why I smoke weed. It's not! I smoke bc it is my own personal preference. It's what I like to do to unwind at the end of the day. It relaxes me. I'm not even sure why I'm explaining myself to someone so fucking closed minded, someone so ignorant. Someone who actually had the balls to tell me that my lifestyle is an abomination. It's people like you that I can't stand. People who believe that their way of thinking or living is the right way. That what they believe in is right. I am sexualy open, I'm open with everything, hence my fucking blog, that does not make me a bad person. Yes, you are right, I am worth alot, I am beautiful and talented, I'm a fucking great person! That is why you follow me isn't it? You like to see a glimpse at my life.
You asked what good has come from me doing things my way besides surviving. I'll tell you what. I am living, I do what I want when I want, I have the balls to do what others aren't doing, I live the way I want to not the way society believes I should, I am happy, I am free, I do what I love for a living, how many people can say that? I'm following my dreams, I love my life, I'm creative I know what I want, I am my own person, I am original, I've seen and experiences so much, I am inspiring, I am beautiful and talented I'm not just surviving, I am LIVING!!! And I rather my son be just like me than be some uptight, closed minded, judgemental, traditional, unoriginal prick like yourself.
You continue to have fun on your journey in my life!





1 comment:

  1. Speak your mind Dee & never feel bad for the person you are & I know you don't need me to tell you that. I admire you for you. I might not live "MY" life as you do yours, but you are a truly amazing person & I love everything about you !!!

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